I dont think my blog's created to tell stories about things. Ive created it to express my feelings. But sometimes I just dont know how to express it. So I made stories that can show u how I feel. Currently, im confused. I just dont know what I want. Ive been thinking all away but I dont get it. Things doesnt go very well. Sometimes im happy, sometimes I dont. So theres a lot of mood changes everytime we text. My life with her is all about texting. Its ok, im happy with it. I really want to be a good man for her. So I just follow her rythms. Its painful but im willing to do anything. That can show u how much I need her. Geez im crapping too much. I just want to scream all away but I cant. My conscience keep telling me that I should keep it in my heart.

P/s : Sometimes I worry about things that doesnt make sense. Thats why I said that I have mind that controlled by paranoia.

Damn! Im grounded. Forever I guess. Thanks to the teachers and those who helped. Im happy with my new life. No more night outing except Friday night. Geez, sounds like... Erhh... No life!! Thats why I hate school. Making my life miserable.

Syafiq, his brother(dont know his name), Asyraaf, Dika and I went to Kuantan yesterday. Went to East Coast Mall of course. Bought the clash of the titans tickets. Syafiq's brother paid for that. Heeee~ After that, we went to noodle station for dinner. Again, Syafiq's brother treated us. Weee~ Hahaha. The movie? Awesome! But I want to watch in 3D. The tickets for 3D? 12.45pm. Do you have the guts? We watched the movie at 9.45pm. East Coast Mall has been fully conquered by us while waiting for it. I dont think I have the guts to wait for 3D. HAHAHA. Sometimes I feel like it is a nonsense movie. God have siblings? Having sex with human which has created by himself? The most nonsense part is when god can have kids. And god's power depends on humans love. But still, I think it is an awesome movie. Half legend and half mitose.

A night ride with her. God what a beautiful night. Got text from her, asking weather if I want to go out with her. I was shocked. Am I asleep? Pinch me! WUUHHHUUU! I cant believe it. Wonderful night I tell you. So many lights glimmered in my eyes. Lights of life :D

I still cant believe that she cried because of me. Now I realized how important I am to her. Lets just call her Natsuki. I dont know why should I call her Natsuki. I just love that name. HAHA. Well she said, she read again my Eid card that I gave to her last year. It was when I didnt contact her for a while due to.... ermm I think I didnt have to tell about that. Its a long and complex story. She read again and she cried. Wahaaauuu, I still cant believe it. Someone out there, cried all because of me. Because I didnt text or call her for a quite long time. I've been wondering...... I know this post is a rubbish. But who cares? Its my blog. This is my bestest way to express my feelings. For those who have problems with it. Shut your fucking mouth up!

Mind under construction. Keep thinking about things that not really important. I guess. What should I wear tommorow, girls and so on. Stupid right? But this is me. This is what I really am. Mind that controlled by paranoia, sometimes. Thinking way too much. I analyse absolutely everything! Im extremely stressed out, depression and discomfort is creeping over me.

Things doesnt go really well lately. Luckily I got HER, making my day. Life is getting busier day by day. Extra classes, night classes, DUMB classes! Geez, give me a break! Finished school at 2.10pm and extra class at 2.45pm? Damn! And night class at 8.00pm. Woohhooo! Seriously I "LOVE" these fucking classes. It makes me missing Friday and Saturday.

She's no longer my Juliet. Im sorry because I promised all kind of things and I broke it. I didnt mean to do such thing to u. I was happy with u before. But things doesnt always goes right. Im so sorry. Thanks for these momerable 3 months. Thanks for everything. I'll always remember u eventhough we're not together anymore. Im going single for a really long long time. Just like I did before. I can do it. Oh yeah, I did it before. :) 11 months! Ok now, make it 12 months. HAHAHAHA. God, I shouldnt laugh. Im sorry.

She should'nt ask for it at the first time. She pissed me off. Now face the consequences. And my advice for all the girls out there, dont make yourself look weak. Brave yourself!

God how I feel guilty right now. I didnt text my Juliet for 3 days. Its not that im ignoring her, im TRYING to focus on my exam. Im sorry Juliet, I didnt mean to do such thing to you. ILOVEYOUSOMUCH.

Fucking stupid exam. I didnt revise at all. I dont know how to revise. Seriously! Since there's a lot of cheating cases last year, the school admin try to keep the exam rules to sit tight. But still, there's a plenty of us cheating. Seriously, I didnt cheat this time. God, cant wait for the result. It will show how much effort has been given by me for this fucking TOV exam. I tell you what, I didnt give any effort at all. Haha. Motherfucking crunk juice!

Im dedicating this post to Nadiah bt Abd Rahim. I feel so guilty. I didnt mean to do such thing to you. I know the word "sorry" has been threw a lot from me and you keep saying that "its ok/it doesnt matter". But still, I feel so guilty right now. You used to make me smile and make my day shine. I just want you to know how much I love and care about you.

Forgive me :(

I cant access to internet like I used to right now. Due to some problems. God I hate problems. School has started and it suck. A lot! Cant wait until SPM. Still, im afraid of it. But I want to get through this school life instantly. That's all I guess. Nothing much to say.